Later 09'

Dear 2009,


you royally sucked. No not completely, but it wasn’t the easiest one that’s for sure. I learned what a panic attack is, had one too many meetings with the police, had the word guilt hanging over for me half the year, some other moments im choosing to stuff down memory lane and hope to never dig up, became too curious about devil candy, got kicked out of the local bar, got strapped to a hospital bed, and at some emotional low point, told my dad to fuck off. Wow! According to that list I shouldn’t even want to show my face. But on the positive side, I do because what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger. Besides one day I’ll look back and laugh...

On a much more positive or lighter things of 2009, I did start doing probably the best thing I’ve ever done to not feel so lost. To just do what I love to do and be around the people that make me happy. I didn’t do or feel like I had to do things that I didn’t want to do or be apart of. I did an internship for a smaller magazine company that puts on a lot of events. Definitely learned some lessons for my future career while scored some good words for my resume. Attended amazing music concerts such as; Coachella 09!! (no words), Coldplay, Ray Lamontagne, Benny Benassi, Fisherspooner (even though that was a horrible set), Modest Mouse, and Pinback. I realized that life is always up and down and that horrible moments will soon pass because life is always going through phases.

Who knows what tomorrow will bring. I’m not saying im complete dust in the wind, but all my actions have reactions. I have about a year left of school before I get my B.A. Am saying goodbye to the dental assisting job and hello again to Nordstrom…I’m gaining one more adult responsibility because I have to pay for my phone bill now :/. I’m doing the best thing that I can do right now which is loving like I won’t get hurt and being loved.

I'm stepping off this 2009 ride and getting on a new life decade ride. Wonder how it's gonna be!...Surprising, high, low, fast, slow?? Whatever, I'll try and enjoy the ride no matter what.
 

My Delirium

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas Everyone!!! I couldn't ask or be thankful for anything else. I got some cold hard cash to save up for my new Cannon. Running shoes so I can start running the streets again, some super cute brown boots that are much needed in my wardrobe, oh and finally a magic 8 ball since I'm such an indecisive person.

Being half mexican and half mormon I have a lot of family, I' Msquared...anyways that means a big family and I'm thankful I get to see most of them over the holidays. Mom's cooking in the kitchen while Corey, Kaela (with her new wedgie free underwear) and I are watching the classy Jingle All the Way. Merry Christmas, so thankful I'm not at work right now.

Sex is full of lies. The body tries to tell the truth. But, it’s usually too battered with rules to be heard, and bound with pretenses so it can hardly move. We cripple ourselves with lies. - Jim Morrison

1:43

And you would  leave a missed call at 1:43.

winter break

I'm as happy as that sheep for another semester of school to be over. I really enjoyed this semester (minus the homework of course). Winter break is here and I havn't even thought of a list of things to do yet....so here they are with minimal thinking.

1. Relax and enjoy no school

2. Read a book

3. Attend a couple shows/concerts

4. Get my holiday shopping done on time

5. Play in the snow

6. Ring in 2010 with little expectations

7. For something or someone to open my eyes to something new

8. Disneyland trip

9. Make some $ to pay off my shopping habits

10. Smile

Tumblr

If it's not one internet addiction its another. I've been over Facebook, and  lately mine is Tumblr. I just cant seem to get enough of it! When I first started exporing it, I thought it wasn't too creative and that everyone reblogged the same stuff, but I guess there's a whole lot out there if you really spend some time on it and sadly that'd be me. Last night a friend, who I havn't spoke to in months asked me, How do you have so much time to Blog? I guess I just make the time and hell, I'm single. My Tumblr name is the same as my blogspot name just to keep it simple.


I wonder what I would be doing if my internet was down for a month? My guess is excersizing more often :/

http://energeticpulse.tumblr.com/

Stop Motion video. cute

Her Morning Elegance
by rysakosa

Taste just like candy

trying

    With so many school projects, finals, working two jobs, an ex-lover coming back into my social circle, waking up to a phone call about a friend that died last night, just hearing that my brother totalled his car, and seeing a close friend slowly spiral down, I don't know what to say, feel or freaking do. So stressed about everything. I know once the semester is over and the holidays are over I'll have some breathing time, but I just feel like I have so much to say, but don't know if I should. It makes me unbelievably sad to hear when people die from ODing on drugs. I can't relate to addiction too much, but have seen it too much recently and see that it just destorys people. When I think of people I admire or find interesting, those people have passions in life, not addictions. As hippy as this sounds, but if people really tried a little harder, the world would be a much more beautiful place.
    I talked to this guy that moved here from Columbia to go to school and chase the American Dream. His family owns one of the biggest coffee companys. He wouldnt tell me which one because I think he thougth I was a gold digger, but anyways, I asked him his favorite thing about living here, He genuily thought about it and said, "I'm Safe." We may be politically incorrect, corrupted by the media, and in an economic crisis. But I think we can agree that safety is a priority. What that has to do with anything I said above I have no idea. Like I said I have a lot on my mind, and writing sometimes releases a paper weight off my shoulders. Off to work.

yes please

Sometimes from Miami Horror on Vimeo.

The grass is always greener

       The grass is always more green and looks better on the other side of the fence. It took me awhile to learn this, but I'm glad I have it down now. Other people's lives' sometimes seem so much appealing or easier than our own lives. Truth is, once you get to know that someone you were maybe jealous of just a little, you realize they're just as fucked up as you are if not more.

      I havn't had the easiest paths in life, in my young 22 years of living, and I'm quite thankful for that. I'm grateful that I have learned how to work towards things that I really want and that I've never really been "given" or handed things I dont deserve. Some people or a lot of people as it seems get things that they don't "deserve."

      Be thankful for for your past, because it's led to where you are today. Every little action we make has a profound impact and reaction to that simple action. The grass will always look more appealing on the other side. But at that root of the grass, there's just dirt.

    

light it up

I take no credit for any of the above photos

Honest

Does honesty get one far?
So far in my short lived life....I guess yeah.
Overwhelming thoughts right now.
Super anxious for the next 3 weeks.
Time will only tell.
Already know, but know it's not over.
It's an undescrible feeling that I don't want to accept.
How is love so evol and dark at once?...
Just gonna keep being around the people that make me happy.
And doing the things that make me happy.

Relaxing

        Pretty content right now if I must say. I'm also a giddy little kid in a candy store because tomorrow I know there's some good shopping to be done. Something about going to industry sells gets my blood flowing...The cheap prices, the fact I can afford it since I'm hustling my ass working two jobs, and of course the cute boys that work at the damn warehouses. Anyways looking forward to Vestal, Sabre, Rvca, and maybe paul frank sale to get some Christmas shopping done. I'm nice right now. Also stoked on my Radiohead current obsession and the fact that I'm cooking my favorite fettici alfredo right now. In the mood to interview people for no damn reason. babble babble babbling dont. Oh yes, I want to name my second daughter Stella.
         

Goodbye Disneyland

Goodbye Disneyland annual pass, mine expires today :( It seems like a short year, but the selected trips I did go on I completly enjoyed. Indiana Jones never got old, as well as people watching or taking pictures of the fireworks in the summer. Ironic that I'm going to school to finish my paper thats due on Walt Disney and my pass expires today. See you soon hopefully.

Lunch Break Tuesday

Everything is gonna be alright.

Minus the fact that I just saw Ed Hardy's Daughter has a line coming out. Do we need to maximize the douchebages for a girl line too? NO