Wednesday, March 3, 2010

My Subconscious Monster

Almost every girl has said at one point, "I have a shopping problem." My little shopping problem isn't as far as TrueLife: I'm a shoppaholic or anything like that, but my little "problem" is making me think too much.

Why do I feel the need to have bags of unworn clothes on my bedroom floor? Why do I feel a magnetic connection of being sucked into walking into Forever 21 at least once a week?

-My thoughts that make excuses for themselves tell me I could be missing out on a great deal!
-I just really want something new to wear for the weekend, because If I don't have something new in the wardrobe when I hit the night-life, my night will not meet its expectations of spectacular.
-Just to make sure I'm the first to get the last of my size in that CHEAP item.
-Because I was depressed so I self medicate with a product
-Because I don't want to focus on my real-life problems and shopping in Forever 21 makes me feel like like I'm in a blissful euphoria if I have new clothes to wear.
-Do I care so much about my appearance or how I portray myself to others I will keep my bank account dry as long as I have new clothing and accessories to wear?
-Are some people just "slaves" to the latest fashion?
-Who am I really trying to impress?
-Am I just addicted and always have been addicted to having new items to wear? It does give me a sense of high when I figure out or compromise what I'm going to purchase.
-Do I shop to try on clothes just to make sure my body stays in shape? Because never finding anything to wear because nothing looks good is one of my worst feelings.
-Or am I totally over analyzing the fact that I like to see what's new in Forever 21 once a week and that's totally normal?

I'm not sure what the answer is or If I even care to seek one, but Forever21 has definately created a mini shopping monster within myself. I spend way too much time thinking about clothing, and way too much time browseing around in there. I guess I can start getting worried when the employees know me by a first name basis.