Thursday, June 16, 2011

Leprechaun Ransack

Just wanted to go home and get out of my over-heated hooded Tavik sweatshirt. So why not stop by my house on the way home from lunch with the three kids that I nanny for? Only to walk up to my front door and find it slightly open which seemed a bit strange because nobody else's car was home. I found it even more odd that our 52 inch flat screen TV was just sitting on the floor unplugged as well as cigar cases opened on the couch.


My initial flight or fight didn't even trigger when I walked into my room and found drawers opened clothes misplaced. Sadly, my first reaction was to make sure my computer was still where I left it, and it was, but my old and most favorite cannon camera wasn't. That's when I felt like I had been intruded by Goldie Locks-That Bitch.


I couldn't wear my expression of fear in front of the kids because I didn't want them to feel scarred. I had checked the other rooms and closet's to make sure nobody was hiding. For some reason it just seemed logical to do that instead of staying in a house with an unknown Leprechaun. When I saw my dad's room torn from wall-to-wall, I knew I had to call and tell him "Dad, we've been robbed."


Before calling I thought-okay, how can I tell my dad, without making it seem dramatic as possible. When I said we've been robbed over the phone, the kids eyes' widened like an Indian on Opiates. After I got off the phone with my dad, the youngest boy of 4 years-old looks at me dead serious in the eye and says, "Candace, there's no such thing as burglars. It was a leprechaun."

Monday, June 6, 2011

What now?

A fresh out of college graduate-what now? A girl who has a guy and doesn't have any complaints about him-what do I do now? These have been my past reoccurring thoughts the past couple weeks. I just passed a mini milestone in my life. Something I've been working up for since I've been in pre-school is now a chapter in my life that's over. Graduated college, what the heck am I supposed to do now? I feel bit lost, sad, scarred if anything, and bit of relief that I actually graduated. But the constant question I get and remains in the back of my head is- What's next? My go-to answer is something on the lines of, "We'll I'm gonna take some time to enjoy my summer, and hopefully I'll find my niche in the entertainment market." All being true, but in all honestly where's my motivation at?

Now the boy part. Finally, I feel as though I've met someone who I can be myself around, has good style, is easy-going, down to earth, easy to talk to, has a lot in common with myself, my friends absolutely approve of, and more. All being positive things-but it brings me right back to the part where I have inner conflicts with myself. The scared of being hurt and getting attached part. There's nothing better than the honeymoon part of relationships where every thing's new, you haven't fought, and quite frankly I think I'm just so used to a toxic relationship sometimes I think how is it possible for me to get what I want? Or now that I feel like I have it all-What now?