Come here little fishy, your going to be thrown away into the Atlantic far away as possible from me. Be careful of where you choose to swim because I would never want you to drown.
The past week has been anything but ordinary and I don't even know where to separate my thoughts from what is real and what's gonna happen tomorrow. How come we meet certain people in our life at certain times for a specific reason? Everything has just gone in one huge fucked up circle, zig zag, love triangle, heartache, manipulated minds, and anything else possible.
I feel like I've been dealt with these cards as a test, and failed because I knew what I was getting into and knew that I needed to get out. I feel like now I'm suffering emotionally because I failed one too many "tests." It really does hurt right now, but I know that if I keep my head high, continue to be the person I am, don't try to "get back" at anyone, and have the good heart I was given, then I know I'm capable of anything and something amazing is around the corner for me.
One day I'll look back and laugh at my stupid decisions because I know that I'm going to be successful in whatever I choose to pursue. I know that those people who have intentionally hurt me will get their karma. I already know I have loyal friends and family and a good head on my shoulders. I've made plenty of bad choices, but I actually have learned from most, unlike others who continue to make the same mistakes making that a habit.
Life's too short to be mad, and to tell you the truth I'm actually relieved by it. When I think back to the day I kissed you and knew I was in for a ride I didn't know that this is where I was going to end up. It's been a long, stressful, learning, exhausting, un-trusting ride. But hey, on to the next one! Except this time I'm not gonna pretend those red flags are hitting me in the face.
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